I try and i tried

I try to laugh about it,
cover it all up with lies.
I try to joke about it,
hiding the tears in my eyes.
I try to forget about it,
telling everyone im alright.
While inside this broken frame of mine,
I wished you would die.


I try to put it behind me,
burying it with memories.
I try to feel brave and strong,
pushing on and on.
I try to make it alright again,
but i guess its all in vain.
For nothing could prepare me
for the thing that might just kill me.


Chorus:
It takes a thousand tries to bring me down
And i found myself on the ground
I guess my thousand times are up
You won, im in defeat.
I try and tried to get back up
No helping hand from above this time
But finally i got back on my feet
The ground never felt so thin
But i aint giving in.


I try to find my footing,
should've worn thicker shoes.
I try to take baby steps,
but my legs just wouldnt move.
I try not to let it show,
but my heart was on my sleeve.
I try and i try and i tried
But the wounds were just too deep.


Chorus


Ohh I tried..
I tried..


I try and tried to get back up
No helping hand from above this time
But finally i got back on my feet
The ground never felt so thin
But i aint giving in.


No, no...
I aint giving in.
Ohhh


Chorus till end.


-by Miss Scarlet Inian with credits to Ashok Kumar on the 3rd of March 2010.